im drinking mud.

well, it's not actually mud.
it's black soybean, with black and brown rice, as well as corn, root extract, soy germ (yes i said GERM), bamboo salt, kale, celery, spinach, cabbage, sea tangle (must be things that get tangled in the ocean..), oak mushroom, numerous fruits, more mushrooms, parsley (????), and more random ingredients. all these delightful things have been processed into a fine greenish brown powder for me to shake into water and "enjoy".
i'd take mud over this anyday.

why am i subjecting myself to this torture?
because my mom believes that it'll make my skin "nice" and help my "wellbeing". also, it's supposedly helpful in burning fat and my moms 100% gungho about me becoming an anorexic.
no joke.

the drink's not terribly disgusting, i'm not puking all over the place (sorry for you visual people) but it's definitely not the most appealing color either and has the strangest texture. it's thick and grainy? i dont know if thats the right word but it feels like im swallowing handfuls of wet sand.

through this whole process, i've had come to realize three things: 1) i hate my life (hahaha im just kidding-- but i do hate this drink) 2) my mom is ridiculous and 3) our society has become brainwashed into believing that everybody needs to be "pretty"

1) is pretty self-explanatory 2) my mom will do anything in her power to make me perfect. it's stressful and saddening but also soo cute. today when she hauled in that huge box of mudpackets-- i mean blacksoyamealpackets she was soo proud. she was like "michelle! apparently these things are really good for diets and everybody's using it!" and she raved on and on about it. it's not her fault. i feel like everybody's getting drawn into these new fads, whether it be yoga, low carb diets, acai berries, I DONT KNOW, people are drawn to them like moths to a lantern. low carb diet= skinny jennifer aniston..... so i can do it too! uhhh, no. jennifer aniston has a personal trainer and a personal nutritionist and a personal whatever the hell she wants. we, the average peoples, on the other hand, have nothing. 3) kinda goes with #2 with all this hype about doing x to obtain y everyone's trying trying trying to obtain the perfect version of themselves. hm, yesterday i went to the university of chicago rep visit and the rep said something that seemed so stupid but was soo real. she said "nobody can be a better you than you". seems obvious huh. then why do we try so hard to change ourselves? our culture makes it almost NORMAL to get plastic surgery and alter ourselves. its craazy. yes, looking at all my magazines and watching tv makes me want to be a super skinny supermodel but hey, i'm also pretty happy with where i am.
i just think the world would be happier place if we all loved ourselves more, yaknow?

anyway, i digressed a bit huh. i hope this crap will make me focus better on my physics homework because i've still got a lot left.

PHSYICS PARTY IN MY BRAIIN.



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ps: i am to take this magic potion EVERY MORNING. the big package thing even came with a couldron-- i mean bottle.