failure.

i meant to write a blog on my birthday about a wishlist of things that nobody can get me (im talking intangible objects) and i had some faantastic things to put on my list. but i forgot them. all.
hooray for memory loss.

i am currently helping-- no, im doing it all- i'm DOING my little brother's freaking science project. i think i understand what it's like to be a parent now. sad part? I HAVENT EVEN FINISHED MY OWN HOMEWORKK.
-----hmm, i suppose i could be doing that instead of writing this blog.. OHWELL-----
it's interesting to see how helpless/ hopeless kids are at that age (eric's in 6th grade). it's even more interesting to know that 6 years ago i was probably like that too. but in the moment i thought i was on top of the world lookatme! im so cool! SIXTH GRADER!! MIDDLE SCHOOOOLER!
uhhuh. for sure.
but now im a senior, still not the absolute top of the food chain but big enough to make me feel that much cooler. at school it's all about being the big dog now. people act so tough and rude because they feel they have the right as a 12th grader.
UH? HELLO?? the kid you're pushing around was you ONE TWO THREE FOUR YEARS AGO.
yes, im guilty of feeling allpowerful and mighty as a senior but honestly, you're not that much different than you were a year ago. sure, you get the awesome senior priveleges like going off campus and getting dance tickets first, you also get the excuse of senioritis for all slacking you do, but SERIOUSLY that's no reason to push around kids that are in a position you were once in and will be in the position you are in in a couple of years. does this make sense? i think when senior A messes with freshman B, who will become senior B in 3 years, senior B will mess with freshman C and it'll just keep going and going and going.
lets stop this cycle of hate ya'll!

and im sure this is very hypocritical of me to say, seeing as i disapprove of most underclassmen (only the skanky ones- what is WITH that these days??!) buut that doesnt mean that when i see some 4'11" underdeveloped girl wearing a skirt that barely covers her butt and a pound of foundation with eyeliner to her eyebrows i'm going to go make fun of her or push her around because "im a senior". what will that do?

aiesh. i totally got on a tangent rant. i was going to write about how im wasting time cutting out words for erics project buuut somehow we got.. here.

sorry. teehee.


ps: i had an excellent birthday! so thankyou to everyone that wished me a happy birthday and ANGELA for making me soo many cupcakes that i almost barfed after 5th period.