+hope

i have never felt this hopeless about a paper in my life.

i really don't know how i even have the nerve to be writing a blog post when i could be buckling down on my paper. bad decisions. and none of these prompts are even especially difficult. i think i've just succumbed to the little voice in my head that's telling me "you don't have enough time" "you're not going to finish on time" "give up, give up".

not to mention there are so many unassuming distractions that are affecting my morale. and in this stupid pit of hopelessness, they feel like salt on extremely expansive wounds. i mean i guess it's my fault. but there was something in me that hoped it wouldn't be..

still, grateful for new people that fill a void that was once full, thankful that i get to see a glimpse of His love.

Father, bring me out of here. let all my hope be in You.