the other side.

with college applications and all this "senior-ness" i've been thinking a lot about the future. where am i gonna end up? what kind of person am i gonna be?

i've always kind of been like the person that gets bored of whatever she's doing and wants to go somewhere else, try something new, meet different people, yaknow? like living in palos verdes has REALLY made me want to move to new york.
don't get me wrong, i think it's great here but.. i feel like it's just kind of missing the bustle and excitement that i want.

or, that's how i felt until recently.

i guess i'm really giving it some thought because of college apps? next year, it's really going to matter where i choose. no takebacks. and as much as i've wanted to go to the east coast these past like 4 years, i think i'm probably going to end up staying here in socal, or at least in california because this is home to me.

people always think the grass is greener on the other side, no matter what. when we're faced with problems, we think to ourselves, "well, if i were just _________, then it'd be okay." and then we get negative and think "it's so unfair. why do i have to be like this?" MEANWHILE, the ones that we are envying are thinking "i wish i were like _________"
....PEOPLE, why are we never satisfied??

i live in a beautiful city in a state that has sunshine year-round. just because i dont think it's "fun" here, i think "if only i lived in new york, then my life would be SO much greater!" and then i gripe about how pv is "OMG so BORING" and "MOM, why did we MOVE HERE??" haha, but the funny thing is there are so many people on the east coast that yearn for the perfect socal weather and beaches. either way you look on the spectrum, people just want the other one. augh.

short people want to be tall, tall people really wouldn't mind being shorter, californians want to adventure in newyork, newyorkians want to chill in california.

i advocate trying new things and traveling and i dont believe that envying is something we, as humans, will ever overcome. but i wish we'd stop complaining! be grateful for what you DO have, instead of whining about what you DONT have.


wise words:
the seaweed is always greener
in somebody else’s lake
you dream about going up there
but that is a big mistake

just look at the world around you
right here on the ocean floor
such wonderful things surround you
what more is you lookin’ for?

- Under The Sea from The Little Mermaid