hope

i find it really strange that i am reviving my blog during midterms.
haha, i think i wind up blogging at times when i need all the time i can get to study as a strong act of defiance... to my education?

i dont know.

anywhoo. today my mom told me that shes going to start calling me hope (no reference to hope kim at NHSB).
-why? she was so bummed by some of my brothers college rejection letters that i told her i'd try my best to do better. maybe it was the sibling rivalry nonsense kicking in, but i have NO idea why i said that. but anyways, she was all like OKAY. you get straight A's from now on and you can get into any college you want. and i just thought: ooh shit, what giant hole did i just dig and push myself into?
but, you know, no pressure or anything. im just my moms last hope.