state of mind.

dude. seriously, i am just a mess of thoughts these days.

possibly the reason behind this blog bombardment.

i feel like my head's a computer with too many programs running. it's becoming laggy, unresponsive, and just tired. it also crashes often, which is probably when you'll catch me spacing out. haha.

im having a hard time figuring things out. i want clarifications and explanations and definites about certain things but right now im so unsure about everything! i feel like im trying too hard to take the reigns and when i cant hold on and direct myself, i get anxious. i need to keep reminding myself to trust God and have faith that he'll make things clear for me when i need them.

i also think this excessive thinking is screwing up my communicational skills because i dont really have any left. hahaha!