grateful.

it is 3:13am and i am sitting in our refrigerated study lounge with my quilt and pillow.. cant sleep SOOO, i figured i'd catch everyone up on my life.

college has been pretty great. though i've had a LOT of work& writing and a bout of homesickness at one point, overall, it's been a positive experience. i've made some friends, though none i can truly call "a good friend"-- more like surface-level relationships so far-- and i've found a good community within kcm. my schedule is heavenly, my room is nice, my roommate is awesome, and the campus is perfect! i've truly been blessed by all these things but have never taken the time to be grateful and give thanks to the Lord, who provides.

it's so strange to imagine how i'd be if i ended up going to school in the east coast the way i wanted. weird to think that i wouldn't have met the friends i've made, would be in a different state, would be so far from home.. and it's mystifying the way that God has a plan for me and all of us! God places these people in our lives, with the intention of the interactions we have. for that, i am extremely thankful.

one of the greatest blessings i've found at usc is definitely kcm. it helps a lot that most of my friends come out to kcm with me, but the people i've met and the friendships i've made AT kcm have also been really valuable& idunno... enjoyable? too. i love everyone there and im really excited for the rest of the year and my own future in kcm! i hope to get more involved and become like the mentors i have, for future trojans:)

aside from school, i've been really grateful for the support and love i receive from my friends. it was harder to realize when we were all together, but now that we're all on our own wobbly feet, i feel like God has truly allowed us to show our unconditional support for one another. though im always missing someone and it makes me sad, i feel like one awesome way to view it is that when we meet again, it'll be more of a celebration. also, aside from the friends that have moved away, i've been thankful for those that remain. i love getting to know everyone better and spending time with people that i didn't get the chance to know well before. overall, i am SO grateful to God for surrounding me with such smart, wonderful, loving, caring, supportive people. it' a blessing that i often let slide by.

i've also been really happy to be staying at tfpc. i've been there my whole life and now i feel like i can finally give back a bit. though our church has been through its fair share of issues, those days are past and i just get this feeling that we're growing back stronger than before. i've already seen God move in the youth group and i have faith that He will continue fostering our church back. besides the fact that i will be able to remain as a witness to the big changes going on in the church, i like that moving up to EM has allowed me to meet so many new people! and not only people of my age but a wide range! i am excited.

so in a nutshell, my life has been pretty good. i guess i've been trying not to let things bring me down. im hoping this year i'll be able to have a good attitude and ownn up usc! &i hope my story can be encouraging to anyone else thats transitioning. one of the key things that i try to keep in mind is that God has a plan for His children and He is ALWAYS with us.

+"Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." -Matthew 6:34

okay, i actually finished EXACTLY at 4! goooodnight!