sar.chasm

have you ever had a conversation with someone you just met wherein a wee bit of your REAL personality (contrary to the "oh nice to meeet yooooou" facade) spills out? and maybe that little peek of your honest personality is something they needed time getting used to so it kinda freaks them out/ they dont know how to take it?
what, no? well then you can go home.

the other day during my free 4th i was doing hw in the library with my twin angela when one of her old friends asked to sit with us and do her own thang. i was like coolcool nice to meet you hi. annnd that was pretty much it-ish. they talked and i did my hw.
we finished pretty early so we decided to make a pinkberry run. why not. and i told the girl, in my wonderful im-so-nice-notreally-i-just-met-you voice "wanna come with?" and she was like sure sure. so we walked to my glorious car, which bytheway has been dubbed "chaz" because really? could a name get any cheesier?-- and got on our way. i must say, chaz must really bring out the weird in me. probably because it's just such an amazing car. as we drove i tried making small talk about all the fantastic amenities of chaz. like the automatic euphonious melodies that are emitted from the engine when i drive, kinda like the pollutants that most "average" cars let out. and isnt this green TO DIE FOR? and hey did you know that seat swivels? it was all good and fun.
then we get to the pencenter and on our way to pinkberry we pass a new(?) children's store called spankys-- which, in my opinion, is a totally inappropriate name for a childrens store.. what, you disagree? well you can go home. again. --and we start joking around about whattheheckdoesthatstoresellanyway? so i shared my knowledge which i gathered from a time i walked by it once and saw that it sold croc decorations? like the little things you can jam into the holes of your crocs in attempt to make it look, yaknow, a little less garish. i was like "i think they sell croc decorations?" and the girls like "pffft wooow" and here comes the moment of "bai sarcasm spills over" i replied "yeaa thats pretty much all i get in that store" joking. really.
and she kinda like falters. ahaha. you know when you can tell a persons trying to figure out if you were serious or joking. liiike if you were joking they can be like EL OH ELL SO FUNNAAAY. but what if i were being serious? you just laughed at my love of crocs. NOT cool.
so i see her kinda like struggle with that and then... awkwarddddd.
THEN, ofcourse, i try to pull a HAHA juuuuuuuust kiddddddddddinggggg.

yea, awkwarder.