ohcar.

another hot day. drove back home from church by myself (eric is at a birthday party!) soo i figured i'd get some things done.

first off, before church, i went to the gas station to get gas and decided while i was waiting that i should reallly clean my car. it looks like it's been through a war.. in the desert.. with lots of sand. like some off road rage car or whatever. anyways, what im trying to get at is.. it was freeeeaking gross.
so i wiped the windows with eric and, well, what that achieved was clean windows buuut nastynasty rest of the car. all the mucky water from the window wiping mixed with the dirt already on the body of the car and made a hot mess. minus the hot. unless you're talking about the weather.
anywhoo, i digress. soo after church i decided that i'd stop by the drive thru car wash. i loveee those places. when i was little i thought they were magical. and i dont have to pay tip. nuff said.
after i finished, i had to keep my windows rolled up (i HATE when people roll down my windows/ i roll down my window after it just got washed and it leaves that smeary thingy) and i blasted my AC instead. something you should know is that i always drive with my windows open. why? because 1) my car is soo old the AC is... sketchy 2) i like the breeze 3) it makes me feel. safer?? buut anyways. while i was driving with my windows up i noticed i couldnt hear the usually omnipresent buzz burr rattle of my car's engine, which has been bothering me for... like forever and has caused me to whine my butt off and beg for a new car (im a stupid child). so, of course, i thought of a very interesting analysis.
i think sometimes in life, we view people, things, activities, with the windows open. we hear/see all the bad things, the things we dont like and we complain&hate complain&hate complain&hate, or in my case, whine whine whine. however, when we close the windows, or shut off all the outside sources of distractions we notice all the good things. it made me think. shouldn't i just be happy and content with what i have? i mean seriously, i should be grateful i even have my own car, crap though it is, it still runs, the engine is SUPACHAAAHGED (super charged), annd everything inside is functional. so what is there to complain about?? sure, it'd be nice if i had a porsche or a ferrari or a lambo buut, let's be real. im, honestly, just glad i have a car. does this mean im going to stop asking for a new car? probably not loll buut ima appreciate my car a LOT more. and in that way, when i have those times when my friend is really bothering me or im angry at my parents, i think i should shut my windows and be grateful for my good friends and healthy and whole parents.