goodbye summer.

and college friends!

interesting that i sporatically updated my blog at the beginning(ish) of the summer
and at the close of summer.

summer is a queer season. it's liberation, but a facade. happiness, but sadness. hellos, goodbyes.
liberation, need a say much about this one? any seasonal break is heavenly for high school children YET its also a mere mirage of freedom. i mean, think about it, what do most of us (maybe im generalizing "us" as asians, koreans, my friends&me) do during the summer anyway?
when i ask people how their summer's been, what they've been up to, i hear the occassional, "i visited *insert vacation spot hither* and it was awesome/sucky" but MOST of the time, it's "it sucks man, i have elite every day" oorr "i've been at a summer program in stanford (must be said in a british accent)" or even "boring, i've been studying for SATs and starting my college apps"

so aside from the random vacation-ers (who, by the way, dont usually vacation the WHOLE summer) most people spend their summers doing things similarly to the monotonous days of school. sometimes, even worse.
my point of view could be terribly skewed considering i dont have many very close friends to have gettogethers with every single night and that my mother happens to be a first generation korean woman BUUUT i think what i wrote above will be only slight variations of other kids' summers.

next. happiness& sadness. i guess this goes with hellos, goodbyes. this summer, especially, has been full of lots of goodbyes, but some hellos. mainly, i said goodbye to my older brother, who, though at times, makes me soo furious i cant even see straight, has been my partner in crime and friend since i've been born (obviously). we used to be best friends when we were younger. sigh. the good ole days. and though i may seem like i dont miss him much and i tell everybody that asks me how im feeling that "it's whatever" it IS different. i'm not especially sad, but that might be because im an emotionless freak. but its different. i'll get used to it...
many other goodbyes to good senior friends, which i seemed to have a plenty this year. it's so strange, having such a transition. but people come in and out of your life like tides.
on a brighter note, there have been many hellos as well. i started working at the aquarium this summer and i met many new people there. it's always fun getting to know people and thinking about how you might have never met them unless you did ___________. or maybe thats just fun for me..
i've also met new people through tutoring, which i've also picked up this summer. tutoring kids is so fun... but scary (like driving??). maybe i'll blog one day about that. so summer always holds new opportunities for us.
happy/sad, hello/goodbye

summer.. make up your mind!